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(4 dont know what it means | I need an easy friend)

Right to be annoyed? [19 Jul 2009|11:28pm]
Say your "girlfriend/boyfriend" goes away on a trip for 10 days and you no contact with them. No internet, no phone, no nothing. Then they come back. As youre talking and play catch up, not once do they mention that they missed you. No "I've been thinking about you." or "I missed you sooo much." or "So glad I get to talk to you again." Zero. Bupkiss. So do I have a right to be annoyed? Am I being oversensitive? Is this a sign she doesnt care that much? Cause me? When Im with someone, I miss them all the time. Whether its 10 days or 2 days. And I want and damnit deserve it in return. Im tired of always being the one who cares more about the other in a relationship. Meh Im just venting. Id do it facebook style but shed see it.

(1 dont know what it means | I need an easy friend)

If you love something, set it free.... [09 Jun 2009|11:24pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you

You say you're leavin
As you look away
I know theres really nothin left to say
Just know i'm here
Whenever you need me
I'll wait for you

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

Take your time I wont go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

Oh and i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

I can't get close if your not there
I can't get inside if theres no soul to bear
I can't fix you i can't save you
Its something you have to do

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
Come back to me
So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me

(4 dont know what it means | I need an easy friend)

Risk my life to see a movie? [13 Jan 2009|11:18pm]
Ok maybe not that drastic. Heres the dealy. Most of you know what happened sunday night. For those who dont, I almost hit a parked car. See my car has no heat and hole/crack/opening in that rubber stuff by the door. So my car frosts over on the inside. I scrape it all off. It looks fine. I start to drive, because no heat is on it, it frosts back over. Therefore making it very difficult to drive at night. I have a hard time driving home from work and its only a few blocks away. So I REALLY dont wanna go anywhere far like the mall and on open highways where there are lots of cars. Now daytime, I dont mind. Even with some frost, I can see good with the sun. Its night Im not too kool with. So I tell my friend this and she goes off. Saying how I never wanna see her and always make excuses. Well shes the one whos busy all day and cant hang till night. And Im sorry if I dont feel comfortable going out. I would think most friends would understand. Then she hints that maybe we shouldnt be friends anymore. Wtf? Youre gonna end a friendship because Im afraid, with good reason, of getting into an accident? Is my friendship that meaningless that you can just throw it away? Is that what happened with all the other friends Ive lost over the years? Am I not a good friend? Seriously. Not looking for sympathy. Tell me if I doing something wrong. I can try to change. Gotta be a reason I lost so many friends in such a short time: Matt, Christina, Hugh, Taylor, Rob, Metal, Slappy, Tori, Dave, Emma, Kim, Jenneatte, Rosa, and those are just the ones I can remember right now.

(3 dont know what it means | I need an easy friend)

A Christmas Classic [13 Dec 2008|07:15pm]
Wrote this a few years ago. Felt like bringin it out. I miss yah Charlotte.

The Stickle Who Hated Charlotte

Every kid
Down in Po-ville
Liked Charlotte a lot...

But the Stickle,
Who lived just North of Po-ville,
Did NOT!

The Stickle hated Charlotte! The whole Charlotte season!
Now, please don't ask why. No one quite knows the reason.
It could be that his music tastes were crap.
It could be, perhaps, no girl would sit in his lap.
But I think that the most likely reason of all
May have been that his heart was two sizes too small.

But,
Whatever the reason,
His heart or his music,
He sat at his computer, thinking of Charlotte, getting sick.
Staring down from his house with a sour, Stickle frown
He knew that Charlotte, would soon be in town

"She likes her cometbus!" he snarled with a sneer.
"Friday shes coming! It's practically here!"
Then he growled, with his Stickle fingers nervously drumming,
"I MUST find a way to keep Charlotte from coming!"
For, Friday, he knew...

...She would not be tardy.
She'd get back, And they'd begin their party!
And then! Oh, the noise! Oh, the noise! Noise! Noise! Noise!
That's one thing he hated! The NOISE! NOISE! NOISE! NOISE!

Then the kids, young and old, would sit down to a drink.
And they'd drink! And they'd drink!
And they'd DRINK! DRINK! DRINK! DRINK!
They would start on Rum, and rare OEs.
Which was something the Stickle couldn't stand in the least!

And THEN
They'd do something he liked least of all!
Every kid down in Po-ville, the tall and the small,
Would gather at the Hob Nobbin, and do some mingling.
They'd stand mic-in-hand. And the kids would start singing!

They'd sing! And they'd sing!
AND they'd SING! SING! SING! SING!
And the more the Stickle thought of the Drunk-Kareoke-Sing
The more the Stickle thought, "I must stop this whole thing!
"Why for sveral years I've put up with it now!
I MUST stop Charlotte from coming!
...But HOW?"

Then he got an idea!
An awful idea!
THE STICKLE
GOT A WONDERFUL, AWFUL IDEA!

And the Stickle, with his stickle-self, and no where to go.
Sat puzzling and puzzling: "How could it be so?
"She came without drugs! She came with no party!
"She came without Absinthe, gin or OE!"
And he puzzled three hours, `till his puzzler was sore.
Then the Stickle thought of something he hadn't before!
"Maybe Charlotte," he thought, "Isnt really a whore."
"Maybe Charlotte...perhaps...means a little bit more!"

And what happened then...?
Well...in Po-ville they say
That the Stickle's small heart
Grew three sizes that day!
And the minute his heart didn't feel quite so tight,
He grabbed the phone and was picked up that night.
And he saw her there and he hugged her with ease!
And he...

...HE HIMSELF...!
The Stickle drank the O-E.

(4 dont know what it means | I need an easy friend)

Whatever happened to... [16 Oct 2008|06:54pm]
Evanescence?
My Chemical Romance?
Puddle of Mudd?
New Found Glory?
Yellowcard?
The Vines?
The Hives?
Eminem?
The White Stripes?
Korn?
Simple Plan?
The Used?
AFI?


Just goin through my library and curious. Some of these artists you havent heard from in years.

(1 dont know what it means | I need an easy friend)

Its times like these... [10 Oct 2008|03:48pm]
....that not having a girlfriend can really get to you. Normally it doesnt bother me as much. Yeah sure I want someone to kiss or hold hands with, but its not too bad. But when you're really depressed, then yeah, you want that someone really bad. Someone you can just hold and hold you and feel better.

Things are happening at The Stickle House that Im none too pleased with. Still dont have a job. I've been applying online, in person, had interviews, but nothin. Money is gettin tight. My credit card is almost up to its limit and its not on frivolous stuff. I dont go out and buy DVDS or comics or go to movies anymore. I use the card to pay my bills, some of moms bills, groceries, and gas. It all adds up. I know in a month or so I can prob find a job anywhere with seasonal help. But thats still far away and Id have to find a new job in the new year anyway and start this process all over again. Then some stuff is happening in the extended family. Cant have Christmas at my aunts or my grandmas and we dont what to do.

Everything is just pilin up. I just want a gf right now so I could call and say "Baby I need you" and she came over and we could just hold eachother and make things feel more ok. But I'll deal. I always do. I'll just try not to think about it and watch some tv. I just felt like venting. It helps me.

(I need an easy friend)

DANIELLE LOOK!!! [28 Sep 2008|03:38pm]


Coming in Jan. Cant wait!

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